From May through October I had an amazing time riding out a whirlwind summer romance - we spent every free moment together taking trips, exploring the vast culinary offerings in the DMV and thoroughly enjoying one another's company. It was a summer I wished would never end, and truthfully am still separately trying to hold on to. I realize it's not healthy to try and hold on to this relationship that has ended, and I know it's not right, but part of me felt so strongly about him that I still can't bear the thought of his complete absence from my life. That's all I will say about that for now, but I will continue to hope that the happiness I experienced this summer was only a glimpse of the happiness I will continue to experience in the weeks and months to come.
I guess at this point I should let you all know that I didn't come to my computer with a specific thing I wanted to write about, so I'll apologize if my thoughts are scattered. I sat down feeling nostalgic and wanting to put something down.
I'm looking forward to 2014. There will inevitably be boring days, many of them I'm sure, but I feel more and more now that I have the power to take control of where my life is headed - and more importantly I'm feeling the motivation and drive to make moves.
One move in particular I'm looking to make in the coming year is beginning an advanced degree. While I didn't read the entirety of my father's thesis (I doubt I would fully understand it anyway, as the topic was mechanical engineering) I did read the dedication. He dedicated his work to his children with the hope that they would do one better. I think part of the reason I've felt less than satisfied in my life as of late is that I know I'm not living up to my potential, and there is a deep seated disappointment that I'm letting myself down. To that end I've been researching graduate programs that I could complete, and I've started the application process for two entirely different graduate programs - one would be a Masters of International Political Economy to be completed in Singapore, the other a Sustainable MBA through an online program with a liberal arts college in Vermont.
I'm strongly tempted by the desire to leave DC and spend some more time in South East Asia. I like the region, I have a few friends in the area - including two living in Singapore. I would be lying however if the thought of making a change that big doesn't make me nervous - a little voice in my head says that making a move like this would stunt the progression of my personal life. I'm so often reminded by photos and posts on Facebook that all of my friends are getting married, buying houses and having children. However, I can't deny that moving to Singapore would be awesome, and I think a degree like that would put me in a position to do amazing things when and if I decide to return.
On the other hand, there's an off chance that I can work with my employer to fund part of my online MBA as long as I stay in DC working for him. Which wouldn't be a bad thing. The office is expanding, we may be moving into a new downtown office as soon as the first quarter of 2014 and my job responsibilities may expand to include more office manager duties, which would be good. I would also be able to stay in DC at a time when I've finally begun to get my life together and make some real connections to the city through rugby and the Chive community. Even though I will be first to tell you I want to get out of the city, there's something about DC that speaks to me - especially now.
I guess I won't have to make the decision until I complete and application and get accepted. Of course I'll keep you all updated. For now, goodnight.
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